I woke up with puffy eyes from lack of sleep and crying. I put concealer on to make my eyes look slightly more normal and because I was so upset I actually had a bowl of cereal. Great, now I'm going to gain 10 pounds, all thanks to the stupid excuse of a friend Niall James Horan. I with I never even met him! I've known him for 2 days and he already has the power to do THIS to me? No, that's not right. That's why I close everyone out. And to make it even worse he left me for Brie. She's like a black hole, sucking in anything that makes me eve a little happy. 6 missed calls from Niall too. He's so horrible. First he is super sweet. Then he's a jerk. Then he has the nerve to call me at 3 am? 6 TIMES?! I put my clothes on and skateboarded to school. At least it wasn't raining this morning.
I arrived to find Niall in the same spot as yesterday. Because all the seats were taken I had the honour of sitting in front of Niall. I kept my head down and my sleeves pulled down so my hands were hidden. Barbie didn't have this class so that was a bonus but one of the girls from her group was and she sat two seats in front of me. About half way into the hour I felt someone touching my backpack. I whipped my head around to see Niall slipping a note into the side pocket. "stop it. I don't want to read it." I whisper-yelled at his face. He stared at me with pain in his eyes, silently pleading for me to read it. I rolled my eyes and turned back to the teacher. The next few classes went by painfully slow. At lunch Niall sat with the popular kids and I ate in the music room by myself. I ate my 2 yoghurt and I also ate half of a ham sandwich. I forgot how good a ham sandwich was. I decided it was only fair to read the note. That and I was curious... I pulled the note out of my backpack where he had left it. On it he had written his name in bold letters. It read:
Look, I'm really sorry for what happened yesterday. I can't tell you why I have to ignore you but trust me when I say it's for your protection. I don't know you yet. Not really, but I know enough to know you have had it bad and all you are is good. I really want to be your friend I do. I just, we have to be friends in private for now. I can't hang out with you at school. Not Until I can sort this all out. You are an amazing girl and I am not ashamed of you. I promise this is for your own good. You'll understand everything soon. Please don't hate me. (P.S You look really pretty today and your hair looks nice) Meet me at your "special place" tomorrow at 5 p.m? :) Love, Nialler <3
What the heck is that supposed to mean?! He can't be seen with me at school but he wants to be my friend? He's not ashamed of me but we can only meet outside of school? He's doing this for my protection? Well, I can protect myself thank you very much! I just pray that he won't tell anyone about my secret spot. I would die. Really. As I was about to leave I heard Barbie coming so I grabbed my bag and hid behind the teachers table. Uggg. It was her and her 2 of her bimbos and... Niall? "hahah Niall! What's wrong?" "I just do't understand why you pick on Natalie that's all." "Um, maybe because she's an ugly nerd. If I didn't she would have a false sense of pride." "Well, I think she's beautiful. Prettier than you even...and she'd kind." "Niall... be careful. Don't forget our agreement okay? Or I will break her beyond repair. You know I can." "Fine." At that they all walked out but I saw Niall's feet from under the table stay still. He sat down and picked up a guitar. He started playing and I recognized it immediately. It was wonder-wall by Oasis. I closed my eyes and sat under the table, listening to every note his fingers played and every word that came out of his soft lips. As he finished singing the last note I came up from my hiding spot. I think I startled him because he nearly dropped the guitar onto the floor. "That was really pretty" I said, my eyes never leaving the floor. "What arrangement did you make with her?" He stayed silent. He slowly wrapped his arms around me and I let him. I rested my head in the crook of his neck letting a tear fall onto his shirt. We just stood there, swaying to the non-existent music. He started singing wonder-wall again into my hair. When the bell sounded he squeezed me and said "I'm so sorry princess." and walked out to his next class. I walked to the nurses office telling her I had a stomach ache and that I needed to call home. I called Xenia but she off today. My parents were in a meeting and the nurse said I couldn't leave without an adult. I ended up having to sit through the rest of school. Great. The next day was the same drama. All I wanted was to see Niall and be hugged by him. 5 p.m , 5 p.m. At 5 I would be able to have a normal conversation again. (VIDEO BELOW)