They're gone. Just like that, gone. I can't imagine how the others feel. Or how Elly feels. Its our fault they're gone. We should have been there for them. We were unaware, stupid, boys. I feel sick to my stomach. Im just glad I have Elly. Poor Elly. I need to talk to her but now... I don't know if I'll ever get the chance. It's too hectic. Too crazy. I wouldn't even know how to begin to ask her while we're in a situation like this. We haven't had any time to really talk. I need her, I need her to know how I really feel about her. But when? Maybe I'll never be able to talk to her. Maybe I should just forget about her. For now... Elly is acting all tough. Like she's fine, Like nothing can touch her. But I think she's just trying to be brae for Katie and the others. She has always been tough. Like walls are all around her but her true, soft, sweet side is hidden from everyone else. I want to see inside those walls. But how? When? I know she isn't as tough as she make s people think she is. I've heard her crying late at night when she thinks everyone else is sleeping. But I can't sleep. I'm worried for Elly. I'm too nervous to go to her while she cries at night. I don't want her to get mad at me. Before I go to bed tonight I can tell Elly is going to start crying to night so I gave her a long hug goodnight. She stopped crying at about 1 am this time. I'm so worried so I got up and opened her door a little bit. Just to make sure she was safe. I stood there for a while and the door accidentally creaked waking her up. She saw me in the door way and gasped thinking I was an intruder. I quickly ran to her bedside and held her next to my chest. I could feel her heart beat fast against my body. "I'm sorry" I said. I ran my fingers through her hair, relaxing her. "Why were you standing there" she asked me. Looking up at my with her beautiful, big, green eyes. "I was worried about you. I've heard you crying and I was so worried that if I fell asleep, you would go away. I need you Elly. I was just making sure you were safe." She giggled. " What's so funny?" I asked her. "You're the sweetest, creepiest, cutest, stalker ever. You big weirdo." Elly was perfect. Just perfect. I smiled at her and kissed her on top of her head before going back to my room to sleep.
It's been 4 days since the girls went missing. FOUR DAYS! Why haven't they been found?! We haven't heard anything from them. Nothing. Every time the phone rings from the police station it's only them telling us that they haven't found anything. I cry every night. Every night. I can't live without her. I just can't. I cry until I can't breathe. I wake up tired even when I sleep for 12 hours. I feel so helpless. They needed us. And where were we? Practising for a show. I can't even imagine what is happening to them right now. I grabbed my coat and got in the car. I drove to the police station. They took me into an office and told me some leads that they had. Which was nothing. useless leads. I just lost it. I couldn't contain myself any longer. I started yelling in their faces. I threw some folders on the ground and and then I went limp. I broke. I'm broken. Niall is just as broken. I sat down and talked to Niall once an officer escorted me home. Niall hasn't eaten these past few days. his already skinny body is even smaller. He has red blotches all over his face every morning. We need to get them home or I don't think Niall will be able to live any more. Niall doesn't talk any more. not even to Zayn. Liam has been trying to help find the girls. He's worried sick. he spends all day making lists and charts and time lines and possible spots we should look for them. What are we going to do?