School bell finally signalled that the day was over. Thankfully I've avoided niall all day... until now. I was about to get on my skateboard when Niall jumped in front of me. "move" I told him. "I'm going to your house. Remember? Oh..here. You left this book..." I froze as I saw him pull out my diary.quote/song book. "You didn't read that, did you?" I said. "Of course not love. it looked private."
N: "Oh, uh. Thank you"
I carried my skateboard as we walked in silence. I couldn't help but look at him out of the corner of my eye though. He was strange, but I liked him. We got to my house and Niall just gasped.
Ni: "This is... huge!"
N: "I guess. Oh, This is our house-cleaner Xenia. Do you speak spanish?" i asked him
Ni: "A little bit"
N: "Great! Hola Xenia!! Se llama Niall. habla un pocito de espanol!"
We alked to her for a while. I occasionally giggled at Niall's spanish but xenia loved him already. We walked up to my room and sat on my bed.
Ni: "I saw you staring at me by the way. While we were walking."
I probably turned bright red. Crap! He probably thinks I like him or something. I couldn't even say anything!
Ni: "It's okay. I am pretty.... GORGEOUS!"
he turned around and he had put some girly glasses he found on while he did that stupid 'duck face'. I started laughing like crazy. For the first time.... I laughed. I really did.
Ni: "I like your laugh...And I think it's so cool you speak spanish..."
N: "Thanks." After only about 10 minutes of looking through my room and starting the organization process he started complaining about how hungry he was so Xenia offered to make some spaghetti for him. she came up a short while later with a big bowl for Niall and I to share. 'Don't you want some?' he'd ask. I was kind of on a diet. i couldn't just tell him that I was anorexic! I'm not proud of it either. I loved food. i could eat and eat. I would get hungry and allow myself something and hate myself a little more each time. So, i decided I would only have 1 or 2 low fat yogurts for lunch and an apple for dinner. I always skipped breakfast any ways. I just told him i wasn't very hungry. No one knew how I was and I wanted to keep it that way. Brie used to call me fat, so... I stopped eating. you can see my ribs almost. Once I was skinny, I thought she would leave me alone. but no. She had to point out more of my infinite flaws. I tried to kill her with kindness, blah, blah, blah. Ya, that failed. I tried ignoring it. i couldn't. i'm so jacked up... I'm not even 15 yet! I shouldn't be like this! I have thought about ending it so many times. I guess i'm just a coward. I run from everything. Niall finished so he began asking me questions. Like, why I was wearing long sleeves when it was hot outside. Why I wasn't hungry. Why brie didn't like me. Who my friends were. i couldn't take it anymore so... I left. I got up and i ran out the door leaving him behind me. I may have been skinny but i could run. Xenia always knew where I would go. I found a secret place a few years ago and I've come here whenever I need to be alone which happens quite a lot. I took a short cut hoping Niall wouldn't follow. I ran out passed the houses into the trees. I ran until I found the meadow. Along side the meadow on the tree line, I had built a small tree house. I had water bottels, books, a pillow, a pocket knife and a light. I also built a tire swing on the tree next to my tree house. Through the window you could just see trees and a meadow. It was beauiful... until I heard that stupid Irish accent...